Lost Love

As my heart drops I have only yet read the first sentence you have wrote me.
There is no need to read more. The rest is just words.
Your proclivity towards distance only intensified my furtive desire for you.
With each truth I told you and each wall I let down I had hoped you would let yours down as well.
But you didn’t. Your walls were too strong, too thick, you were too scared of your world without them.
You were too scared of me without them.
The risk was too great for you.

But not me

I saw more then just the man.
I saw the boy you hid beyond those walls.
I saw the boundless country of your heart.
I saw the radiance of the sun that heated the earth of your heart.
I felt the heat of the blood that ran through the rivers in your soul.
I rode the waves of the sea that crashed upon your shores.
I never questioned your world only asked to be allowed to enter it.

You entered mine.

You control your world well.
And love is too risky.
But the intensity of your touch belied the locks you keep on your heart.
I know you wanted to take them off.

I took mine off.

You know you brought me out here.
You were the guide.
I only followed your lead.
Your recreant behavior of leaving me in the dead of night is only made true by the guilt of the rest of your words.

But you never expected to get lost out here, did you.
My heart is open and shines down the path back home.
Yours is locked away and only jostles at the door, begging to be let out.

My heart was open
My heart gave you love
My heart beat to your tempo
My heart’s love you stole

My heart will make more

My heart is magnanimous
My heart cherishes you still
My heart lights the path I walk down
My heart beats to my own drum

My heart will make more

My heart hopes you find love
My heart knows it will give again
My heart hopes to find love
My heart hopes to be cherished again

My heart knows it will make more


Love